oh my gosh, where was i?

I’ve been meaning to write an update post for weeks.. I just never took the time to go back and look at previous posts to find out where I left off.. Mom brain, it’s real.

If you follow me on IG, then you probably already know most of this. I’m WAY better about posting things on IG than I am on here. It takes way less time to snap a pic, and write a quick caption. I can do that while I’m nursing, which takes up a whole lot of my time these days. (follow me here)

When I left off last we had take Paisley to two appointments with the chiropractor. We took her to the chiropractor because she had a really tight jaw. She was unable to open her mouth much more than the size of a dime, which made breastfeeding a real challenge. We finished up her treatment at the 3rd visit. Dr. Smith felt she had made some great progress and that we could come back as needed, but he didn’t see any need to continue treating her.

Since her final adjustment our breastfeeding relationship has gotten substantially better. We did have a gross case of thrush, which required us to both be treated… but once that cleared up, we have been pain free. It is seriously crazy to me that we are breastfeeding without pain. Sometimes when I’m nursing I think, “wow, this is what it’s supposed to feel like.” It really is so bizarre. We went through so much to be pain free, and while it was a really difficult & trying 11 weeks, I am so so glad that we stuck it out. (I posted about my struggle with breastfeeding here and here)

is it weird to be non-related baby pictures? yes? to bad.

I think I wrote in the last post that my leg is 100% back to normal. so, yay for that! I never did get the results of the nerve conduction study, and at this point, it really doesn’t matter. I don’t have any residual numbness, and my range of motion is perfect.

What else, what else??

Oh. I never posted about this on the blog, but I have posted about it on IG.. and if you get squeemish about medical stuff, or you think it’s weird that I’m posting about it.. then, you’ll probably want to exit now, because we are about to get REALLLLLLL personal up in here.. and I mean REAL personal..

exit now.

So. About a million years ago (or approximately 12 weeks) I thought I had hemorrhoids. Hemorrhoids are SUPER common after child birth, and then, add in the fact that I pushed for 2.5 hours.. I was pretty much destined to get hemorrhoids, right? I thought so.

If you’ve never had hemorrhoids, lucky you – From what I’ve read, they can be very painful – which is why I thought I had one (or 100). I tried every trick in the book to get rid of the ‘rrhoid.. After about 8 weeks of excruciating pain (and blood) every time I had a bowel movement (LOL, can we just say after I took a poop? bowel movement is just…. so work like. I say bowel movement a lot at work).. I went to see a colo-rectal surgeon.

There are fewer things in life more embarrassing than going to see a colo-rectal surgeon. When the nurse took my vitals, my heart rate was through the roof. I had so much anxiety going into this appointment. I know what the treatments are for the ‘rrhoids and it’s not pleasant.

After an exam (where I almost died of embarrassment) the good Dr. proclaimed that I in fact do NOT have hemorrhoids. I have an anal fissure, which I also call a butt cut. Laugh all you want, but that shiz is NO JOKE. It’s a cut, in your butt… just imagine having to poop with an open cut in your butt.

Per the good Dr. the butt cut can heal with the application of some butt cream. It will take 8-12 weeks to heal, but I should have some relief in 1 week. Sweet hallelujer! relief!

Only… I didn’t. Same pain, day after day. I followed up last week… since I have had zero improvement (at that point) the Dr. wants to schedule surgery, more specifically a sphincterotomy. (don’t google that, you’ll be scared. I’m scared).

Here’s what I should have been doing, but wasn’t – taking stool softeners. I increased the amount of fiber I was taking, but wasn’t taking a stool softener with any regularity. So, now, I am taking the stool softener like it’s my job. I do no, I repeat, I DO NOT, want to have surgery. I am absolutely terrified of surgery.

The point of the stool softeners is to soften up the stool enough so that the anus doesn’t have to stretch out, thus causing the butt cut to rip open with every bowel movement.

I told you that you should have exited this post a long time ago. it’s all your fault if you’re like WTH, Jena, WTH.

Surgery is scheduled, but I’m really hoping that I’ll be able to cancel it. I have to give the Dr. 3 days notice to avoid being charged – I have approximately 9 days to get the butt cut healed up.

happy to be running



Mama & Baby must have (0-3mths)

Hello friends, this post probably won’t appeal to very many of my 5 readers, but, bookmark it and come back to it when you find yourself knocked up.

It’s true that babies require a lot of crap. Okay, actually, the truth is, mommy requires a lot of crap to make baby {and mommy} more comfortable. Baby probably only really needs boobs, diapers & a warm place to sleep. All the other stuff is to make Mommy’s life just a little bit easier.

Since we are still deep in the trenches of babyhood, I thought I would share a few things with you that have made my life slightly easier…


There are varying recommendations on whether a baby should sleep flat on their back, or on an incline. Our pediatrician didn’t give an opinion one way or the other, so we use the fisher-price rock n’ play for Paisley’s “bed.” The rock n’ play is small, and compact. It can be folded up and stuffed in the trunk for a trip away from home. Paisley sleeps really well in it, I’m actually kind of afraid that when we move her out, she won’t sleep as well. This model retails {at target} for $59.99.


If I ever get brave enough, we will transition baby girl out of the RnP and into the pack n play.. Pack n Plays, man.. There are about 1 million choices on the market for these things. We chose the Graco Cuddlecove in the Winslet pattern. imageHere’s what I know so far about the pack n’ play. That changing table, good idea in theory, not so easy on the back. You’re basically hunched over the pack n play, trying to change a squirmy little baby. That lasted for about 2 weeks before we moved her changing station to the stop of our dresser. MUCH easier on the ol’ back! The other insert is a “rocker” which doesn’t really rock. I did use that quite a few times when Paisley was much smaller and I needed somewhere to put her while I was downstairs in my office working. It vibrates…hard. At first I thought there was no way Paisley would tolerate that hard vibrate, but she actually liked it and slept pretty well in it a few times. (I’m pretty sure they say don’t let them sleep in it, but I was RIGHT THERE the entire time she was sleeping.. use your own discretion people.. Have some common sense)


The boppy lounger is a DEFINITE MUST HAVE on my new mama baby list! I had never even heard of this prior to getting pregnant… and it was pretty far into my pregnancy before I had ever seen one. My sister had one for her newest little guy and I knew RIGHT AWAY that I HAD to have one! This guy was hard to track down! They sell them on amazon, but I couldn’t find a “girly” one on amazon, so I trekked all over the place looking for a pink one. Listen, most of our furniture is gender neutral, I wanted at least one thing that was PINK!

The last furniture type item that we really use, is the swing. Paisley has spentimage many naps, and a few nights sleeping in this swing. When she hit her 2nd leap in The Wonder Weeks, she refused to sleep anywhere but her swing. Night time sleeps in the swing gave me a little anxiety, but mama’s gotta do, what mama’s gotta do (to get some sleep).

I think the swing we have is an older version of the little lamb swing that is currently available through fisher price. The swing currently retails for $139.99 at Target. We got ours from my sister, who got it off of a facebook resale site.

Honestly, if you are a mama, and don’t mind used things, you should find a local resale site. We have found a lot of great deals on baby items.

I’ll share with you a few other things that we use on a day-to-day basis that make life with a baby just a little bit easier:

imageMoby Wrap. Seriously, this thing is amazing. I understand some babies don’t like them, but Paisley loves this thing. She can’t stay away when we wrap her up in this. It’s like a guaranteed naptime. AH-mazing!

Best $25 I’ve ever spent! I bought this off the resale site; they retail for $44.95 on Amazon.com


Everywhere I look I see people raving over the Aden & Anais swaddle blankets; they are soft, but I just can’t spend $30 on two swaddle blankets. Thankfully we found an alternative (at Ross, no less) that is just as soft and work just as well as I’m sure the A&A blankets work. We use the TOO GOOD blankets, by Jenny Mcarthy.  — I don’t have any pictures of the blankets, but I added them to my amazon store so you can check them out there, or search Too Good blankets on Amazon. We got a few packs of them for $8-10 at Ross. I think they came either 2 or 3 in the pack. They are really light weight which is great for these hot summer days we’ve been getting since Paisley was born. They’ve been washed quite a few times and are holding up very well.


Another great, new to me, product is the OXO Tot perfect pull diaper dispenser. No one wants to fight with the wipes container at 3 o’clock in the morning. We use huggies wipes, and while the containers the wipes come in are fine, it’s annoying to fight with the container to get the wipe out. The OXO wipe dispenser has a weighted shelf that holds the wipes down & allows you to pull one wipe out at a time. I know it seems so trivial, but believe me, it’s worth the $20.

Last on my list of MUST HAVES is the myBaby sound spa lullaby sound machine & projector. We use this white noise machine every single night. We love the projector because it acts as a night light so that we can easily navigate to Paisley’s rock n play for those late night feedings. I’ve always loved white noise machines, and regularly slept with one prior to having Paisley – they are so calming and provide a filter for the noise coming from the nearby road (and our obnoxiously loud neighbors).

I’ve added all of my favorite baby must haves, plus a few other things that we use all the time to my amazon store. You can click on the link to my store and it will bring you to a page of all the items. I will add items to the store and Paisley grows!

A pregnancy update: 21 weeks

I scrolled through the blog and it looks like it’s been a while since I did a pregnancy update; (like 10ish weeks)  so, I will do one today. Lucky you.

weekly progression

I’m great at taking pictures, I’m terrible at labeling them so I know how far along I actually am. I’m only sure about the 19 & 20 weeks pictures. The 14 & 17 are guesses…. bad first time mom, bad.


I am technically 21 weeks & 2 days – We had our anatomy scan a few weeks ago and she was measuring a few days ahead. According to that we are 21 weeks & 6 days. I really don’t think those few days matter all that much. She’s still due the end of December, beginning of January.

The 2nd trimester has been good to me, thus far. You enter the 2nd tri at 14 weeks, and the 3rd tri at 26-27weeks. I’m definitely feeling a lot better; haven’t had any nausea for 10ish weeks.

I don’t have any food aversions, that I can think of. I’m back to cooking regular meals, and eating veggies & fruit. I went way to long with out any kind of fruit & veggies in my diet.

My daily food usually consists of:
7am: breakfast (bagel or oatmea & COFFEE)
9am: snack (greek yogurt or uncrustable – don’t judge me)
11-12: lunch (leftovers or some kind of soup from the grocery store)
1-3: multiple snacks (more yogurt, babybel cheese, fruit)
4-5: more snacks (crackers, banana)
6ish: dinner

I’m currently up 12lbs, and feeling okay with that. This morning I was wondering how much weight I’ve actually gained vs. how much of my muscle has turned into mush? I don’t know what my body fat was prior to getting pregnant, so I don’t have any way of figuring out how much weight I’ve actually gained. It doesn’t matter, it was just something I was thinking about.

I’m not working out at all. Mostly just because I’m lazy, partly bc it rains every freaking day after work. Yes, I have a gym membership; I also have a treadmill & stationary bike in my garage… so I really have no excuse other than I just don’t feel like it.

21 weeks _2

thursday mornin’ & this mornin’

I started feeling Baby P moving around last weekend. I felt a few kicks and I wasn’t 100% sure what it was – but the thumping continued so I decided it was definitely her. I don’t feel her all that regularly, like today, she is being stubborn. She won’t let her Daddy feel her kick – she’s been laying low since yesterday when Chris got home.

We bought her crib & dresser a few weeks ago; got a stellar deal from Burlington Coat Factory. They have a surprisingly large collection of baby things. They had several cribs, infant seats, and strollers. I was really surprised at everything they had – and all for pretty decent prices.

Today we are painting her nursery. Don’t worry, I wore a super awesome mask.


annnnnnd I’ll leave you with that awesome picture. Gotta get cleaned up for dinner tonight. We are headed to Orlando to eat dinner with my family for my Mom & Step-Dad’s birthdays at Buca di Beppo.

At the rate I’m going the next time you see a pregnancy update from me, I’ll be in my 3rd tri and just a few weeks away from meeting Baby P.

You can follow me on instagram at Lifeisbeachykeen for picture updates.





The real truth about what’s going on around here.

Apparently LiveWriter does not want me to preview my posts before i publish them; both times i’ve done this it’s resulted in a lost post.  So, I’m going to attempt this post, again, and hope that we make it into publishing.

I suppose I have kind of been ignoring my blog; not because I don’t like it anymore, but because I’m not doing anything and not doing anything leaves me with nothing to write. I’m not working out, and I do have a reason for that, and I’ll tell you why (even though it’s not even a really good reason).

WE ARE PREGNANT.. and by WE I mean ME..  I can’t decide if it annoys me when I say “we are pregnant” because technically, i’m the only one getting fatter in this equation, but it’s Chris’ kid, and he’s suffering (bc if Mama ain’t happy, ain’t nobody happy)EDITED TO ADD: I AM HAPPY WE ARE PREGNANT, BUT IT’S NOT ALL FUN AND GAMES. and there is nothing happy about getting fat in the summer in Florida. can I get an amen?  Thank goodness I’m not 9 months, right? Whew. I’d never leave the comfort of my air-conditioned house.

SO, yeah. I’m pregnant, and that has made me the laziest slug in the entire world. I think I’ve gone to the gym approximately ONCE since I found out on April 25th. …..like i said, laziest slug IN THE WORLD.

We found out at about 4 weeks on the dot; I wasn’t even late yet, but I was having a major bitch fit and decided I was either pregnant or about to start so I took a test and holy crap it was positive. I chugged some water and took another test, and the lines were faint, but they were there. DON’T WORRY, I HAVE NO INTENTION OF POSTING MY PEE STICKS. Plus they are on my iPhone that died.. 

Chris was out of town so I facetimed him and showed him the test, and he said, “What does that mean?” 

We were both pretty surprised – We were trying, so it wasn’t THAT big of a surprise, but man, I really expected it to take longer. AND let me just say, that I know we are SO BLESSED to have it happen quickly – I know there are many couples who struggle. 

I truly thought there was NO WAY it would happen right away because my cycles have been out of control since I quit taking birth control in November. That was TMI, right? Sorry. I’ll try to avoid to much TMI from now on.

Chris made me buy a digital test because he didn’t trust those lines.. so i went to wal-mart at 11pm to buy a digital and took it the next morning.. yep, still pregnant.

We were lucky to be able to have our first appointment when I was just 6 weeks; I know many places wait until 10-12 weeks.. that is just torture! The Dr. did an ultrasound, and while we couldn’t see a baby, we could see the sac, so that was kind of neat.

Our second appointment was on June 3rd, and at that time I was 9wks/2days; For whatever reason my OB isn’t contracted with my insurance to do regular ultrasounds, so we had to go somewhere else to get a “Dating” ultrasound done. My OB has a little hand held u/s machine so he uses that to show us the baby, then I guess for regular/more detailed scans we will have to go somewhere else.. that’s annoying, but i guess it’s okay since it’s helping my deductible to get met. (insurance talk, blech).

I’m currently 10wk/6days, and my estimated due date is January 5th, 2014 !! Crazy crazy crazy!

I had morning all day sickness from about 6.5 weeks to 9 weeks; the last 2 weeks have been significantly better. The week after we found out I ate pickles like it was my job. SO weird. I like pickles, but I’ve never wanted to eat pickles so bad in my life. Then I went through a ginger snap cookie & chicken nugget phase. I’m finally able to eat fruits & veggies again. It’s a miracle I didn’t gain more than 4lbs in the first few weeks.

don’t judge my crocs; i wear them around the house. /// regular jeans (which i had unbuttoned all day) & a maternity shirt

I think the hardest thing has been the changes in my body so far; I definitely notice I’m getting thicker, and that is hard. Pretty much none of my clothes are comfortable. Hallelujah for scrubs! I have a few pairs of maternity pants, and a few shirts, but I’m trying hard not to wear those yet. I know it’s silly, but whatever.

I’ve done pretty good at avoiding the scale. I’ve gained between 3-4lbs depending on the day; from what I’ve read, 5lbs is normal for the first trimester; so I’m okay with that.

I suppose this is as good of time as any to be pregnant; My sister is 16ish weeks, and one of my good friends is 13ish weeks, so we can all commiserate & celebrate together. Both of them found out what they are having so now I’m SUPER anxious to find out what we are having… It’s going to be a long 8 weeks.

So. I think that’s about it. that’s what’s going on around here. I’m just busy growing a little baby.


Enough about me, what about you. What’s new?